BLUE MIND 2

My royal eminence... Blu's eyes shut down for like 3 seconds, that felt like 3 lifetimes. She woke up and multitudes were around her. People she had known too well, people she wished she hadn't. She stood up, dusty but still smiling. Always. She also noticed that they were looking at something behind her, so she turned around, it was a door. A regular sized, wooden door with no knobs or whatever, carved with the initials that looked exactly like the tattoo on her arm. She read them out loud. 'tinifashi yisit'i'. Translation; 'breathe chic', and the door opened. Kinda like saying open sesame or something. A beautiful woman with long copper brown locks, wearing a nice looking outfit, was standing on the other side. She had a bright smile that looked like a quarter moon and she was staring right back at Blu. Blu couldn't help but smile back.      "Are you ready?" She asked. Blu responded like she didn't understand, but knew that her heart was at peace. "Ready for what?"            "It's cool, we can close the door and come back later, then you can go back there..."                  "No...                  "No...                   ....                   " No." She responded panting and holding on to the door, which was about to close.                  "No. I'm not going back."   "Beautiful...     ... welcome." The lady ushered her in, and the door slammed behind her. That was that.          "You look beat."               "You have no idea" Blu responded. "there aren't any seats in here or what?" Blu continued while looking around to catch a vibe of the place.

     "Didn't you promise to learn how to shut up 3 seconds ago? " The woman asked.

           "That was 3 seconds ago?"Blu asked sarcastically.

   "It's not in your nature to stay down too long, no matter what crosses your path. Now don't get me wrong, you feel things deeply and longer than you should; both positive and negative, but you always keep it moving. You should be proud of that." The woman told her that while wiping off the dust on Blu's shoulder.

      " I want to show you something" she continued while heading towards the corner of the really bright room with windows everywhere but had a mirror. They stood in front of that mirror.

          "I know you have a lot of questions about that mini-experience you had back there... Right? But I'm only here to answer what you need to know, not what you want to know. Okay?"

       "It's cool..." Blu responded .

    "Now, if someone thinks you have the potential to do something, and through your actions, they perceive that to be in accordance with their thoughts, it will manifest as such for them, and that's why it should never bother you what anyone says or thinks of you because it has nothing to do with you. People will only meet you as deeply as they've met themselves and that is the heart of clarity, and it goes both ways.

Secondly; there isn't a man that you gave a chance, who didn't beg for it. Whatever they chose to do with the chance is on them. That is your truth. Embody it and move forward accordingly.

Thirdly; I don't think there's any energy in you to continue 'wanting' things... Yes?"

         "Bruh, where is this going?"

   "See, I don't think you even have the energy to think right now, that's why I'm doing that for you"

           "Bruuuuuuh"

    " Hush! Like I said, you don't have the energy to want things. All the energy left is to get sh** done. Everything else you've handed over to our Father who art in Heaven.

So here you stand a woman without expectations.

Here you stand a free woman.

That's all you need to understand. That's all folks."

             "What about everyone else?" Blu asked

     "What about them?" She responded

               "Okay.... Well what about my parents?" Blu continued asking.

      "How old are you again?" She responded.

                 "Okay...."

"Come, I want to show you something." The woman said after a few seconds of them staring at each other through the mirror. She walked towards the window to her right. There was a really big field and a part of it had sunflowers and daisies and the bigger side had wild crops.

   "This field, as big as it is, belongs to you and when something belongs to you, it means you're responsible for it." The woman begun explaining.

             "Isn't this the sunflower field I kept 'tElePoRtInG' into? If it belongs to me, how come I can't control the weather or something? How come it seemed like I was visiting huh?" Blu asked.

         "Because, weather will never be about you. In this life or in the next, in this galaxy or in the next. You just have to make sure that your roots are grounded enough to withstand the weather. Also answer yourself that question. Why do you seem like a visitor in your own sunflower field HuH?

Now come on we have to go." The woman said as she was walking towards the door."

            "Damn woman ..

              Okay....

              Where are we going?"

"To the field, what's left has to be said when your feet are touching your soil." She responded as she was heading down some stairs. They walked across a wide corridor and got to a glass door that slid itself open. They walked through and the sun hit their faces. They both exhaled at the same time.

Blu looked down and noticed she was wearing some sneakers while the lady was wearing some red bottoms.

             "You're not afraid to step on the mud with those? Looks like it rained last night?" Blu asked sarcastically.

     "Blu, for you I will give the whole universe. Also I'm not afraid to loose anything because there's nothing here that actually belongs to me. Nothing on this planet or any other material realm. All you have is your spirit, that's why when we say protect it, we mean that sh**!"  She responded and proceed to piercing through the mud with those polka dotted red bottoms.

     "Damn..." Blu was surprised and followed her close behind. They stood in the middle of the field and the woman begun speaking.

       "Fall season is over, it's called 'fall' to remind humans how beautiful it is to let things go. Your sunflowers are on the ground. It is time to cultivate again. The rain is upon us."

            "I'm sorry, cultivate?" Blu asked as she looked at her nails.

    "Damn it Blu! You still don't get it?"

         "Alright, alright. Eish, but this is a really big field though, I mean where do I even start? "

                 "Blu blu blu...

                   Tsk tsk tsk...

                   ...you reek of anxiety. That is why it attracts massive amounts of doubt and fear. STOP! There is nothing in front of you and nothing behind you that matters. All that matters is where you're standing at the moment. Tend to the part of the garden you can touch."

          "Wait... A damn minute!!"

     "Shhhh... I told you, whatever you think you know about whatever you think you know, you DON'T! So gather the tools you've collected overtime and keep it moving. All everyone has is their spirit. Nobody knows what they're doing on this planet. Nobody. Everybody is just winging it so don't be ashamed of doing what we we're all called here to do. Trust your God.      

    "Yes ma'am!" Blu responded.

"So yes, it's time to cultivate, this is a time for you to study your soil, plant what suits you, work on grounding your crops, arranging them, play around with colors, and really just believe in what you're about.

Remember; you have to believe in what you want to embody, otherwise they'd just be hobbies. You hear me?"

         "I hear you.Also, what about tools and such..." Blu asked.

"That building we walked out of, belongs to you. Everything you need you will find in there. And remember; in this life, every level you complete, you learn something. That becomes a tool. So for every level, you also level up, and as you do so, everything around you does as well... At this point, it's safe to say that you're doing a great job. I am proud of you." The woman reassured Blu.

    "Thank you" Blu smiled.

 "As you acquire better tools, through your experiences, you harvest healthier more beautiful flowers and your house will bloom with those, so inside and out you will look like what you work your a** off to look and feel like. That's why every time you heal, you get finer."

         "Ow, so that's what's been happening. Damn bi** that's all you had to say... Wait but what about the flowers? Does it mean they weren't grounded enough?"

      " Not really... In the beginning of the year, you went through a spiritual rebirth. Anything happening inside of you will manifest in the physical sense- you know this, so, you're finding that everything you thought you knew and everyone you thought you knew as well, is being revisited, to find out deeper truths in accordance with your current state of mind and spirit. A collective rebirth is what I like to call that.

Whatever is grounded will remain grounded and whatever needs to be cleansed  will be cleansed. But everything you loose will come back in another form so take no thought of that. In fact, don't think too much. You know, what you know... It is, what it is... We are, where we are... Just get to work."

            "It's cool, I understand.

               Thanks"

Blu turned around to face her because she was still looking at the storm on its way, but she wasn't there anymore.

"Yoh,... She disappeared? Just like that? This place is weird.

I didn't even catch her name." Blu sounded disappointed.

       "YOU!.. " She noticed the hazel eyes.

                 ...ARE ME?"

The Hazel eyes came out of the bushes. It was Blu when she was 9. That's why her parents kept reminding her of who she was when she was 9. A little girl craving freedom. Now, years later. She's finally free.

         "You're me, when I was 9 or something?!?!" Blu was surprised.

    "Yeah, I'm you. I'm 9 year old you. 9 year old Blu." The kid responded.

              "If you're me, then who's that lady? "

Blu asked.

     "Still you, but like in your late 40's or something. I stopped keeping up with her age because, black don't crack baby!" The kid responded sarcastically.

         "Yap, you're me. Tired of hiding and stalking me? HaHa." Blu also responded sarcastically.

     "Well, you've been working on your shadow, there isn't anywhere left to hide anymore. .."

                 "Ow... wow. " Blu was surprised.

       " No worries, I'm just glad you're here. I planted all those sunflowers you know." The kid told Blu.

       "You did a great job. I'm proud of you." Blu told her younger self.

     " Thank you... I'll help you work on what you need to work on and you'll help me with my sunflowers and daisies. Okay?" she responded smiling.

      "Cool,I thought I was going to be alone, glad to know I have some company." Blu enthusiastically responded.

"Trust me, there isn't anyone else you'd rather hang out with during this delicate phase other than your younger self. Also, I've lived here a while, when you were busy collecting ToOlS... I could show you a thing or two..."

       "Heeeey, those tools are cool flexes you know. You got what you got, while I got cool flexes"

     "Let's just get to work... Silently, Blu."

  "Interesting, I don't remember Blu being quiet when she was 9,"

          "She shoulda been."

    "Eish! okay... sorry!!" Blu responded.

"Also, Does this place even have a name?" She asked her final question.

        "Yeah, Blue Mind."

   "Not bad"

            "Not bad at all."

                BELIEVE