BE STILL...

Aye fam,

So there's this concept that seems to be fading in this generation. The concept of being still. The concept of patience, which is also known as forbearance. We've seen it around and even read it in the bible, but then life, being life, decides that whether or not you're ready, you must learn about it. You must experience it.

Patience is; being steadfast or having the capacity to tolerate delay, problems or suffering without becoming annoyed or anxious. That's just it. It's a quality where one must learn how to wait calmly and without complaining. "ONE MUST LEARN." Indeed when the universe says 'MUST,' you might be in a fix.

Now, growing up we've been going through challenges that test it's very essence. Tiny little you, as a toddler, would cry over some random toy and every now and then, your parent / guardian would tell you "wait ill get it for you," or teenage you, would be sending or responding to a letter, {i know, i'm a 90's baby}, then you'd have to wait for the response, or, better yet, now that you're working, (especially now) that you have needs to meet, you keep running across situations that force you to be patient; Traffic jam, Nairobi's bi-polar weather, our economic depression, climate change, women, all these and so much more arise as time goes by to test you, to challenge your might. Many a times we get so caught up in thinking we're victims just because the odds might be stacked up against us but, newsflash, the odds are stacked against everyone. It's not just you. When your parent / guardian said to wait, they'd get it for you, (and you're disciplined) you'd sit and wait for them to finish what they were doing (which they were probably doing for you anyway),or put it on hold, then proceed to getting you what you want (because you already have what you need). Then you'd learn that once you ask for something, and you should get it, then you will.

It does not matter how long it takes.(Later in life you'll realize that what belongs to you, will ultimately find its way to you, but that's a story for another day *wink*)

Then Alas! you're sending and receiving letters now, and as you wait for a response a lot is going through you're head; anxiety, fear of rejection, a little anger, mad insecurities, fear of getting caught, fantasies, hella hope and faith, a lot really and you have to learn how to function with all that going through your head still. A lot of lessons are learnt at this stage.

So now you're grown (i'm not talking about age, i'm talking about the mind; maturity), You've been picking up a lot along the way to where you are right now. You've been broken, but put yourself back together, you've been dropped but picked yourself up again, You've cried and wiped your own tears, you've carried an umbrella around town all day and it didn't even rain, this is after sitting through traffic for hours. Expectations are being shattered, bus fare is being hiked again, just like the price of our beloved maize flour. Oh, you must be stressed out. This must seem like too much but my darling i have a secret for you...be still.

I know it seems like a long shot, especially when you're in dire need of a quick fix but, the whole point why life won't stop drilling patience into our core is because 1. It's a life long lesson

2. There's a pleasure to it.

How do i mean? If you've ever had to diligently wait for something that you wanted so bad, then finally... My God, when you finally get it, there's a river that flows in your soul. A river of joy. Within this river, there's confidence. Confidence that you're resilient, that you are a child of God and that He will never forsake you. Confidence that your character has gone through another solidification process (because you're a solid G). Confidence that you were right in being patient. You were right all along. "This kind of confidence is the real kind. Not the mask or the bravado or worst of all, misplaced confidence, but that true sense of one's own skills and character, which rises not from ego but from humility." - John Hennessy

At this point, if life has served you this dish, as cold as it is,(because nights get cold mahn), then you must be humble, or bitter. I choose to be humble. I choose humility. It is the right choice. We're all struggling to make the right choices. In knowing this, we then understand that our life lessons are served differently, so don't judge.

Here's my final secret; My royal eminence, life gets better, and you get better at doing almost everything overtime, Just make sure you're there to see it.

And hey,

Don't forget,

...Be Still.

BELIEVE.